Hey Ya'll!
I'm in rehearsal for RENT right now. Because Maureen is basically not in the first act, I have lots of down time right now.
I think I'm coming close to making a decision, but I'll talk about that more later. Right now, I'm going to talk about my character in RENT to figure it out.
I think that Maureen in many ways the opposite of what I aspire to be, and in many ways is exactly who I want to be right now. Like me, she's vulnerable during the time of the play. She's just changed her sexual identity (or has just discovered it, or is confused) and (like Molly so brilliantly explained) is having a clashing relationship with Joanne, who is just as controlling and competitive as Maureen. Maureen loves the spotlight; she loves being the center of attention, and Mark would give in and come back to her no matter what she did. She's learned to find love and affection with superficial relationships and attention for "fun." Like basically every other character in the show, she's in a vulnerable and awkward change in her life, so it's easier for her to flirt and cover it up. Joanne is who she'll always love, but she doesn't understand how to give to a relationship in the same way someone will give to her. She's selfish in that way.
When Angel dies, she becomes suddenly aware of the importance of her relationship with Joanne... she doesn't know what she would do if she were to go.
More later.
